HOME....

....IS WHERE THE HEART IS!!

I am slipping to the end of my sanity rope. I can feel it. It has taken a while, but it's finally happening. I was talking with some of my co-workers today. I told them that it's getting harder to muster up the energy to function on a daily basis. I noticed it when I woke up this morning. I knew it would be a low day for me. I can tell the moment my feet hit the floor. The heavier my legs feel, the more difficult the day will be to walk through.

I began to wonder why this happens so often. I mean, I know why emotionally it's hard. That's obvious. I'm talking about the physical part. When I say that my legs are heavy---I actually mean it's hard to walk! They hurt. And some days, my whole body hurts. When we began this adoption journey, I knew that it would be emotionally hard. But why would I hurt physically? I realized why this afternoon.

My heart.

The purpose of the heart is to pump blood through your body. All other organs rely on your heart to get the blood flowing. Without blood flow, your body suffers.

I've come to realize that my heart is not capable of functioning properly because a part of it is missing. It's in another country. How can I expect my heart to do it's job when I'm only housing a part of it?! I am so relieved to discover this. I was beginning to worry! Now I know that what is happening to me is normal, given my circumstances. You all know my prayer--that God would allow me to be reunited with the other part of my heart very soon! Once this happens, I will feel like a brand new woman--emotionally and physically!